So confused

I’m so confused about the wedding we have this weekend. I was looking so forward to it… but I’m leaning toward cancelling. Even if Nadia is better, and even if Nora isn’t ‘sick’ she could still be contagious… I can’t possibly imagine giving this to someone at the wedding…

Too many thoughts

Too many thoughts… all jumbled in my brain…

  • Nadia’s tube surgery went well. They drained for a few days as expected and haven’t again since. Yesterday our pediatrician said her ears looked great.
  • Eric’s schedule is still messed up due to Memorial Day. He was on-call two weeks ago, and this week as well. Last week was a commute week, and he was only home one night before 10pm. Parenting alone, going on three weeks straight, especially with sick kids, is really hard on me.
  • Nadia has hand, foot, and mouth. She started with a fever on Sunday, which I originally thought was probably something with her ears. But no. Monday she woke up with one blister on her thumb. Pediatrician said there are sores in her throat, but honestly, I still don’t see many more true blisters on her body. I see lots of tiny red bumps, but that’s all.


  • Nadia did not sleep last night, and isn’t very interested in eating or drinking.
  • I’m exhausted. I had no energy to get Nora ready for school today, so they are both home with me. I’m sort of waiting for Nora to start with the fever.
  • I finally got Nadia to sleep, Nora is currently having popsicles for breakfast and watching Barbie on the iPad. Yeah, I’m feeling like mom of the year right now.
  • I’m attempting to deal with our many piles of laundry. Why is something as simple as laundry so difficult when you’re home alone with two toddlers?
  • Our favorite baby-sitter from Cedar Falls is getting married this weekend. The ceremony is outside, the reception inside, I believe. Both are about three hours from our home. I’ve been planning for a while. A hotel is booked for two nights, Kona is set up for boarding. I even spent a lot of time deciding on cute dresses for the girls and I.
  • Do I cancel now? Wait until the last-minute to see if Nadia is better?
  • Kona keeps digging. I’m so sick of cleaning up her paws everytime I put her outside.
  • Nadia is up already… more later. Maybe.

Pre-Op Appointment

Pre-op was this morning. And Nadia has a double ear infection so another round of antibiotics. I’m not shocked as on Tuesday at the ENT there was a bit of fluid in one ear, and she was super cranky this morning, sticking her fingers in her ears and such. I guess I’m glad we’re getting the tubes so soon.

Only concern at pre-op was Nadia’s SVT, which although she is still being followed by cardiology, hasn’t been an issue since discharge from the NICU. She was on meds the first year of life, but thankfully we’re finished with those. So we’re on for Tuesday with the tubes, only concern would be if she has a fever with her ear infection before then… Let’s hope not.

I finally had time to workout today. I assume I won’t be able to get outta bed tomorrow. Good thing Eric comes home tomorrow… but oh yeah, our guests arrive as well…

Two Down

Two doctors appointments this week down, one more to go.

Nadia’s ophthalmology appointment went well, considering it took four hours… Her eyes look perfect thus she’s been released from their care related to prematurity! One more specialty out of the picture! Tomorrow morning is her pre-op for tubes… Hopefully it’s quick and I can get her to daycare before lunch so I can actually work out. It would be the first time in over a week.

Today felt long and hard. Four hours in a waiting room with a 20 month-old is brutal. Keep in mind her eyes were dilated, so she was pissed about that. This picture was obviously taken as soon as we got to the hospital. monster cookie in hand 🙂 7A73EAAE-8602-4BDD-9396-CE54CC0B2B06

I was so hoping Eric could drive home for even a few hours tonight, at least to help me with baths and bedtime, but no such luck. He said he had too many patients in the ER and more being transferred from smaller hospitals which don’t have urologists. But… the girls are clean and in bed, I think one is sleeping, hopefully the other will be soon.

Also today, this morning, was our Mom’s Club meeting, and I was voted in as President. More to come on this topic as I honestly don’t know much yet. I get the impression a lot of moms weren’t happen with the current president, but with 40+ members, how do you keep everyone happy?

ENT Appointment

The doctor was in our exam room for all of ten minutes. But.. being a doctor’s wife, I get it. He probably had 40+ other patients to see today. And technically I didn’t have any questions, in fact, Eric offered to do the surgery himself. Kidding, sort of…

The exam was quick, he looked in both of Nadia’s ears, confirmed one currently has fluid, but isn’t bulging, and the other looked okay. But… we did just finish antibiotics a week ago. Nadia’s pre-op is scheduled for Thursday, two days from now. Her regular pediatrician is on vacation, so we are seeing someone else at her office. I assume all will be well, even though Nadia technically is still being followed by cardiology at the University. Surgery to put in the tubes is next Tuesday, so a week from today. I’m not worried. I know the ‘surgery’ if you can even call it that, takes all of 90 seconds. There is no IV, no breathing tube, they just gas the kids for a minute and it’s over. Eric already has a 40+ patient clinic of his own scheduled that day, so he won’t be able to join me and Nadia. Which in itself doesn’t really bother me. I’m most nervous about getting both the girls up and getting Nora to daycare earlier than normal so we can be at the surgery center by 730am for our 830 time slot. You know how three year-olds are… they doddle around, take forever to get dressed, take even longer to eat breakfast, and lets not even talk about getting shoes on and in the car! Ugh…

In other news, I found out today that starting Monday Nora will have a new teacher, same classroom and students though, thank goodness! Her current lead teacher, who I love, took a position at another school. I’m sad, I was comfortable with her and Nora whines at drop-off as it is. Now she will probably actually cry all over again for a week or more 😦

I also found out today that Nadia will be moving to the young two’s room on Monday, so two new teachers for her to get comfortable with. Ugh to that as well. Nadia is VERY attached to the lead teacher in her current room, so I assume crying at drop-off for a while for her as well. Nadia won’t technically be two adjusted until October 31st. I assume daycare doesn’t consider this, so she’ll be moving into a room with kids quite older than her. I’m not too worried though, as I actually think being the youngest has a way of speeding up learning, or so I’ve been told by the high-risk follow-up clinic at the University. Nadia will hear and see lots of things she might not with younger kids, so maybe she will pick up on new developmental activities sooner. Or so I hope!

I’m exhausted but both girls are finally in bed, and maybe actually sleeping. Good night!

True Crime

How it is I don’t work (outside the home), have access to full-time daycare (although I don’t take full advantage) and still can’t find the time to complete my to-do lists??? Apparently I have time-management issues.

Eric invited friends of his for the weekend, they have a daughter Nora’s age so she’ll enjoy playing. Problem is, they are staying with us, and since we moved last November we didn’t set up much of the lower level. The to-be guest room is currently a tornado path of toys, the guest bed and furniture in our storage room, unassembled. No really. The bathroom down there doesn’t even have a roll of toilet paper, much less a shower curtain or towels. We have no plans for what to prepare for meals this weekend… and get this, Eric left yesterday morning to work on-call and won’t be back until Friday evening, the same time the guests arrive. And of course he says, “Don’t stress, it will be fine.” Ha, yeah, it will be fine because I will stress all week and get the house ready, washing sheets and comforters, finding the pillows, decorating, well, making functional, the bathroom.

Later today Nadia has an appointment with a local Ear Nose & Throat (ENT) specialist. I actually think she has an active infection, as she was whining last night and sticking her fingers in her ears. I just want tubes. And soon. I want over this pain for her and constant antibiotics which give her diarrhea and diaper rashes.

Tomorrow Nadia has an appointment in Iowa City for another premature-related eye exam. You know, something about their eyes not fully developed by the time they are born, and thus you’re forced to take your child to COUNTLESS appointments where they stick these metal detractors inside their eyelids, you watch them scream, and so forth. I’m hoping this is one of the last exams related to prematurity, as she is over 18 months now.

Anyone into reading true-crime? Well, or listen to, as who the heck has time to read? Not me! I’ve got about 20 more minutes left on my audible book, I’ll Be Gone in the Dark: One Woman’s Obsessive Search for the Golden State Killer by Michelle McNamara. I’ve never read a true-crime book before, but OMG, I was hooked from the first chapter. Fascinating and scary, but so interesting. I highly recommend!

Okay, off to Target to outfit a bathroom. Below are a few pictures I took of the girls last night! Nadia refuses to look at the camera…