Tired, very tired today. Let me explain why…
Ever heard of a pager amplifier? If not, feel free to click the link below and discover all the wonderful advantages, which include, but are certainly not limited to, waking your entire neighborhood 😉
No seriously… The site advertises a 70-100 dB volume range for this product, which, according to the information I found online, is similar to a motorcycle. Yes, louder than a jack hammer. Did you know pain begins at just 125 dB?
So now that you have some background information, imagine this… You’re all snuggled in bed, wrapped in warmth, fast sleep, dreaming of (probably why you can’t have a baby) and out of the blue, a motorcycle is screaming two feet from your ear! Three to four nights a week, roughly hourly, this is my life. And why you ask? Because Eric is constantly sleep deprived but yet forced to save lives, or some damn sh*t, at all hours of the night.
You know how on Grey’s Anatomy they are always getting it on at 6AM before work and their pagers go off? (Side note, why do they still use pagers? This isn’t the 80s??) So in real life, it doesn’t work like that because his alarms, yes, plural, start going off at 4AM and by 5AM he’s already at work. No one actually has time to get it on before work! This handy pager amplifier, though, comes into play long before the alarms… All freaking night sometimes.
Case in point… This morning around 2AM the amplifier scared the living daylights out of me… Thankfully I hadn’t had much to drink before I’d gone to bed… Problem is, Eric doesn’t hear it usually, so I’m forced to poke him until he turns the bloody thing off. But once it is off, it’s not back to sleep for me, as you see, Eric is a bit ‘out of it’ so to speak in the middle of the night, read sleep deprivation. Once I’m wide awake and he isn’t, I feel this strong obligation to make sure he follows through in regards to the page, usually call the younger resident or nurse who paged him. Thankfully we’ve now made it to year five and thus backup call. The fun doesn’t stop there though, as his normal routine is to return the call, from bed, extending my disturbance.
This process repeats itself anywhere from two to five times over the course of one evening until eventually Eric decides he might as well just get up, shower, and go into work. He showered around 3:30AM this morning and left the house around 4AM. Since my alarm is set for 4:30AM, that gave me 30 more minutes of sleep. Ha, as I’d only gotten four hours at that point, from 10PM to 2AM. Yeah, no way 4:30AM was happening! Alarm was reset for 6AM and no upper body workout for me today.
So yes, I’m tired, and I already know what you’re going to say… This is preparing me for mommyhood. But does your child sound like a motorcycle?? And don’t you at least feel some purpose in forgoing sleep? Cause I sure as hell don’t!
In baby making news, I have some updates. Warning, TMI (too much information) is to follow. So, if you don’t care to hear about my cervical fluid, stop reading now! And don’t say I didn’t warn you, this is an infertility blog. What did you think I was gonna write about??
First update, I’ve had strange cervical fluid the past two days. According to my handy app, today is CD 23, just after the point when implantation should occur. Now, as I’ve stated in the past, I don’t purposely track my fluid, but if I happen to notice something, well, I usually find the time to make a note in my app. Yesterday and today though I’ve experienced gobs of really sticky, thick, clear fluid. So of course I Googled it and what did I find? That’s it’s a sign of implantation, or perhaps just a sign that it’s around the time in the cycle for implantation. So, basically that got my hopes up for perhaps nothing. But there is a chance, right?? Time will tell…
Second, I emailed my doctor as I was confused about the next steps in getting this cycle started, particularly which strength of BCPs I’ll be taking and when I start those. Dr. Munch emailed me back within the hour, great service! She called in a Rx for a stronger pill. The one I was on last time, which is their standard go-to, has 35 mcg of estrogen, and this time I’ll be taking one with 50 mcg. So, I need to pick that up tomorrow. The plan is for me to start that pack of pills on the first day of my period. Hopefully that is sooner rather than later, as you have no idea how excited I am to get this cycle going! As soon as I start the pills I need to call and schedule my cycle start appointment. I can’t wait!!! I’ll keep you updated!!!