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Suppression Day 3

First…  I’m feeling like a fairly horrible friend today.  I realized that all I think about is having a baby, but yet I never ask my friends about theirs.  And no, there is no excuse, but can I at least explain my reason?

This is going to sound horrible, but in being honest with myself and this blog, here goes…  I don’t think about your kids.  I mean, I know you have them, but when I think of you, I think of you, not you with them.  Often I see you but not them.  You email me, not them.  You text me, not them.  It’s your life separate from me.  Does that make sense?

So, do I not think of your kids because I don’t have kids?  Because my life revolves around adult things only?  Because I don’t even know what to ask about your kids? I don’t know what it’s like to have kids, to tend to them after work, to think of them rather than myself.  My evenings and weekends revolve around me…  Eric and I have never needed a sitter.  I’ve never said no to a social event because I was tied down at home with children…

So for the record, I want to say I’m sorry for failing to inquire more often about your children.  It’s not that I don’t want to hear about them though, I do.  I just don’t even know what to ask.  I’m rather clueless when it comes to what certain age children do, so please, tell me!  Share the funny and cute stories with me!

Third shot this cycle is complete.  I noticed a few odd feelings today, but no idea if they have anything to do with the medication.  I’ve been trying to drink more water, so of course I run to the bathroom non-stop.  Today seemed different though, even more than my more than usual.  I also noticed that I feel slightly shaky in-between meals, like perhaps my blood sugar is low.  Not common for me, so this is new.  Oh, and awful cramps.  It’s not time for those yet I thought!  Otherwise, just feeling bloated and fat.  I’m seriously thrilled to take my last BCP tomorrow morning.  I’d like to think it will be the last ever in my life.  But I’m not holding my breath!

My UV light for my gel nails arrived today!!!  You know, the gel nails the salons do that last somewhere around two weeks without chipping?  Yeah, well, the supplies and light aren’t really all that expensive.  Plus, a girl at work does her own and hers always look amazing.  So I ordered a kit from Amazon and painted my toes and hands today after work!  They look good, for my first time.  My toes actually look really good, probably because I did one foot at a time.  For my hands I was getting antsy and thus hurried a bit, and it shows.  I got a bit of the polish and such on the skin around my nails, and I have a feeling as they grow that isn’t going to end well.  But, for my first time, they look pretty darn good if I do say so myself!

Tomorrow morning Eric and I are dropping off Kona at playcare for a spa weekend and heading to Cedar Falls to meet with our awesome Realtor again.  I’m excited and not at the same time.  I mean, it is fun to look at houses, and Eric has given me an almost unlimited budget, but all the money in the world isn’t going to make CF exciting in my mind.  I know our Realtor is showing us a couple existing homes, such as this one, but honestly, I think I’d rather build.  I feel like we are just settling on something if we buy existing, as there are honest to God only about three homes for sale in our price-range in CF.  The link above looks really neat inside I think, but the house itself is really old and while remodeled, it makes me wonder if crap will start falling apart as soon as we move in.  I know our Realtor has some recommendations for builders, so I really want to focus on that option tomorrow.  And would it be too much to ask for palm trees to be flown in?  No laughing, I’m serious!

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