I normally never step away from my desk at work to post a blog entry, but I needed a moment… I just called the Patient Information Line (PIL) and received the message regarding our two remaining embryos, the two remaining in the lab.
One Monday, right before our transfer, we were told that of the four that fertilized, the two best graded embryos would be transferred, and the two remaining would be left to culture until day 5 to (hopefully) be frozen for transfer in the future. Of those two remaining, our doctor really expected one to stop growing, as it was only at 2 cells as of day 3. The other though he thought looked really good, he expected it to continue to grow.
The message for the IVF lab, from a woman with a very uncaring voice, told me neither of our embryos met the requirements to be frozen.
We have no back-ups from this cycle. Which sucks. No backups, but yet they tell me nothing is wrong with Eric or me… How can that be? And I hate you get a message. No real human to answer your questions…
I’m scared there is something wrong with my eggs and they just haven’t figured it out yet… The thought of going through the entire stim and retrieval process again overwhelms me.