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UGH

I normally never step away from my desk at work to post a blog entry, but I needed a moment… I just called the Patient Information Line (PIL) and received the message regarding our two remaining embryos, the two remaining in the lab.

One Monday, right before our transfer, we were told that of the four that fertilized, the two best graded embryos would be transferred, and the two remaining would be left to culture until day 5 to (hopefully) be frozen for transfer in the future. Of those two remaining, our doctor really expected one to stop growing, as it was only at 2 cells as of day 3.  The other though he thought looked really good, he expected it to continue to grow.

The message for the IVF lab, from a woman with a very uncaring voice, told me neither of our embryos met the requirements to be frozen.

We have no back-ups from this cycle. Which sucks.  No backups, but yet they tell me nothing is wrong with Eric or me…  How can that be?  And I hate you get a message.  No real human to answer your questions…

I’m scared there is something wrong with my eggs and they just haven’t figured it out yet… The thought of going through the entire stim and retrieval process again overwhelms me.

23 thoughts on “UGH

  1. I was in your shoes a few months ago. I’m sorry it happened to you. Nothing is wrong with you and the hubby. Keep positive thoughts and take care of yourself you have two embies that are still making a home inside of you.

    1. Thank you. I’m trying to keep that in mind, just so hard.

  2. Hey, you are PUPO–don’t go freaking out yet. If you want to freak out about something, freak out about the fact that you may be pregnant with twins (or more!) And leave that other negative crap in the dust. *rubbing your back* Now go drink some herbal tea and envision implantation. XO

    1. LOL, thank you, for making me laugh. I needed that. And yes, what the crap am I going to do with twins since my husband works 24/7??

      1. You can give one to me! 🙂 Lol, jk, jk (kind of) XO

        1. Yeah, I feel like God is laughing at me. Like he’s thinking, ha, she wanted a baby so badly, lets see if she can handle two!

          1. Well I sure hope the joke is on you! XO

    2. ^ What MLACs said 🙂

  3. What a terrible way to get the news . . .I’m so sorry. I’m hoping it is a non-issue because you have all the babies you need settling in for a nice long stay in your uterus. Sending you calm!

    1. Thank you. I just feel so powerless in this entire process… So hard.

  4. Ugh, that must be horribly frustrating! Hopefully it won’t matter because you’re pregnant right now! I sure hope at least. Either way though, you’d really think you could expect to have at least a few left to freeze. I think our clinics should have money back offers in these situations, just not fair. I’m so sorry!!!

    1. Thank you.

  5. I’m still praying for twins.

    1. Did you change your last name??? HAHAHAHA

      1. Cox

  6. That seems like a really unprofessional way to share the news 🙁 I think sometimes people who work in this field forget how fragile the situation is. Sending lots of baby dust to you and hubby for a baby…or 2 😉

    1. Thank you, me too!

  7. You won’t need the other eggs! Cause this one is gonna work. Thinking of you and wishing a baby upon you, or 2!

    1. Thank you, I really hope you’re right!

  8. I’m sorry to hear this. Hugs!

    1. Thank you…

  9. I can’t imagine getting that news via automated message. That sucks. However, don’t stress, you have 2 embies in you that need you to be cool, calm, and relaxed! This cycle will work for you! Think positive! 🙂

    1. Thank you! Still really trying here to stay positive, but ugh, this is so much harder than I ever imagined.

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