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More Wishful Thinking

Today is 9dpo or 4dp5dt.  And still a negative this morning.  And yes, I know, it’s still early.  The negative this morning does not mean we are out of this, but I’m not gonna lie, I’m getting really nervous.  Today was the first day that it dawned on me, that I have no idea how I’ll deal with this transfer failing.  I mean, I know we are far from guaranteed a healthy baby, and most of my posts have been a bit negative, but deep inside I’ve been prepared for success.  If this isn’t a success, well, I’m not sure how I’ll feel.  While our last transfer ended in a miscarriage, I still got the initial excitement of the positive.  I want that again.  But obviously with the happy-ending this time.

As far as symptoms, I have all the usual from the PIO shots, the sore breasts, tons of bathroom breaks, especially at night…  Otherwise though I haven’t noticed much.  Perhaps a strange twinge from time to time, but who knows if I have those every month and I’m just noticing now because I’m super obsessed observant 🙂

I do have one rather odd feeling to note…  I don’t have the best posture, it’s probably most evident at work at my desk, sitting all hunched over.  The past several days it’s been uncomfortable to hunch-over, like something is in the way, like I’m smashing something.  It’s not painful, but, well, just odd.  Like say you were holding a clipboard at your waist and tried to lean over it, it would dig into your gut.  That’s how I feel when I lean over.  Odd, right???

Prayers for some kind of positive sign tomorrow…

12 thoughts on “More Wishful Thinking

  1. I’m saying some prayers for you!

    1. Thank you! I so appreciate it!

  2. Thinking positive thoughts for you!!!

  3. Crossing my fingers and saying prayers for you!!

  4. You’ve got my prayers too!

  5. Good luck my friend. Will be thinking of you.

  6. I am praying for you Stefanie even as I type this! Keep hope alive! xo

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