Oops, sorry about that, I clicked on publish too soon! This version has a bit more to it…
I feel truly blessed that two friends have mentioned throwing me a baby shower. No, I think I feel spoiled actually. See, I’m weird about others, even close friends and family, spending their time and/or money on me. And certainly planning and throwing a baby shower involves both, not to mention the gifts that seem to be expected at such an event. I have no idea when or how this weirdness about me started, but if you’ve been following my blog I’m sure you remember some previous posts about how a baby shower might not be for me.
I LOVE to give others gifts, the sheer joy of seeing the looks on their faces, or better yet, giving anonymously. Just knowing you made someone’s day, or week, or year. It’s a great feeling. But then why can’t I accept the same from others? Do I not believe I’m worthy or deserving? To be completely honest, I have this strong desire to actively plan my own shower, and pay for it. No really, I feel like I should order the invites and send them out so someone else doesn’t have to… That’s weird, right?
Speaking of invites, I need some advice. I of course have the list of girls I’m close with, including those I work with who see me daily and probably have the best glimpse into my life. But what about those who have come into my life in one way or another, those who maybe I haven’t actually spoken to or seen in months? I’d love to see them, to catch up, to reconnect… But is my baby shower the place? I feel like inviting them forces them to purchase me a baby gift, and I certainly can’t and don’t expect that from women who don’t see me on a regular basis. So where do you draw the line on invites?