I haven’t written much regarding my life before Eric, before infertility and all that has followed. Maybe I wasn’t ready to talk about it, or perhaps didn’t feel it was relevant. I started this blog over a year ago to help me deal with infertility, our failed IUIs, and thus the start of our IVF journey. Nowhere in that discussion did I think to mention my prior-life, but to be honest with myself, how I got to ‘here’ probably matters a lot more than I realize.
I’d need a 300+ page novel to really explain how I got to ‘here’, but for your sake I’ll summarize for now and perhaps elaborate in time, notice this is just ‘part 1’. But oh gosh, how do I even summarize? Is there a word limit on these posts???
I’m divorced. Eric is my second husband. And after my divorce, before I met Eric, I was engaged to M. Thankfully I realized before it was too late that M wasn’t right for me. Thankfully I had the courage to break off that engagement. Thankfully I met Eric. But that isn’t exactly where the story ends. Apparently life’s hardest lessons can’t be tucked away in a shoebox; life isn’t always happily ever after.
I met my first husband, J, when I was a junior in college. I worked at Younkers part-time with E. E and her husband, A, were very close friends with J. They’d all gone to high school together and remained close through the college years. E decided the four of us needed to have dinner and drinks together one evening, and while I was reluctant, I agreed. It was dinner and drinks, no harm possible, right?
Following all the characters?? HEHE
The four of us met for pizza and beer at Charley’s, although I think now it’s known by another name, and I assume different owners. I haven’t been back since… I can’t recall many of the details of that night, it was fourteen years ago now! I can recall how I felt though. J was kind, a little quiet, but quite attractive. Definitely worth seeing again. A week or so later he and I went out to dinner alone, to Chili’s I believe, but again, I don’t recall much more from the evening except that we stayed up all night talking about anything and everything.
~ to be continued ~