Sorry, this is a venting post. Skip if you wish 🙂
I’m about at my wit’s end with work… I’m honest to God sitting here, staring at my computer, wondering if all this is really worth it. The time, the frustration, the money, the effort… I’m not convinced it is. Granted, my boss has removed most of my prior work obligations, and therefore my days are left rather empty, but what is left for work is completely ridiculous. I did not obtain a masters degree to complete intern-level assignments. And really, the taxpayers shouldn’t be paying me for such either. I’m frankly bored out of my mind. And yes, I could see this as an opportunity to earn money while remaining underutilized, a cushy job if you will, but I’m learning that not enough work, and work that is beneath me, is far more stressful than mind-challenging tasks which would excite and stimulate my brain.
None of this is new though. Ever since my boss was made aware of my pregnancy I’ve slowly been down-graded on the totum pole here. What is new though, is N’s more consistent overstepping of boundaries within his own role. Our boss is on vacation this week, and twice today N has forwarded work to me, emails/issues originally sent to him which he is fully capably of handling. See the thing is, N wants to be noticed, wearing suits and ties when even the higher-ups in my area don’t. He is obsessed with sucking up to anyone in administration he deems important, anyone who can promote his career. I am clearly not like this, I never had been, even when my career was of the utmost importance to me. N basically is refusing to allot any time to work which doesn’t get him noticed. And frankly, everyone’s role here includes some of such work, it’s just how life works. You do the fun and exciting with the not so fun and not so exciting. But oh no, not N I guess. The emails he’s been forwarding to me as those which are unexciting, messy work which involve no higher-ups. Simply unglamorous issues that need to be handled.
So I called him on it… He gave me this lame-o line about how he didn’t know whose role this type of work was… Um, hello, whoever receives the request!! It’s called work for a reason, it’s not always fun! I’ve never seen myself as above anyway, but N is really pushing my limits. He is younger than myself, with far less experience. I’m not okay with him treating me as his employee. If he has work he can’t accommodate, he really should be discussing roles with our boss, and not taking it upon himself to redistribute the work.
Another example… N scheduled a meeting with me earlier this week, again, our boss being on vacation. I ‘accepted’ the calendar invite but later stressed to him I didn’t see the need to meet this week, being many questions and answers would be expected from management. If you can believe it, his response was that he was going to be making the decisions. He even went as far as to say his decisions would be more trustworthy than our boss’s. I was speechless. I have never before in my life met someone who so blatantly over-steps boundaries and authority, taking it upon themselves to better their own situation.
113 days until baby is due and my employment here ends. How will I make it??