It’s a calm day in the NICU, and that makes me very happy!
As a recap, Nora’s brain MRI and EEG were both normal, which is huge. This doesn’t guarantee she won’t have issues in the future, but it definitely lowers the risk. Nora is still intubated, but they mentioned removing the breathing tube as soon as tomorrow, so more good news! And honestly, I just think she looks better today. She is moving more, her color looks better, she is stretching a ton, and of course, still trying to pull out her feeding tube 🙂 The little stinker always has to have her hand wrapped around something. It’s so cute! She’s gained again as well, up to 1,340 g.
As much as I love seeing Nora, it’s still so hard just to look… I held her for an hour last Monday, but I probably won’t be able to again anytime soon. And now they decided it’s best if we wear gloves and a gown if we want to touch her. This experience is making me feel so distant from my daughter. And I know this is all best for her, but I’m so looking forward to the day when I don’t feel like a danger to her just by breathing.
I was released from the hospital last night, and wow, it was so nice to sleep in my own bed and shower without half my arm covered in saran wrap! I’m feeling a ton better. I pray the infection is truly gone, as the last place I want to end up is back in the hospital. I’m looking forward to this week, hopefully it is much calmer than last!
I’ve neglected my inbox the past two weeks… I assume this is normal when the rest of your life feels like it’s falling apart, right??? Anyway, I see an email from our builder’s assistant asking us to decide on shingles, siding, soffit, and fascia colors, as well as a front door. And I see she wanted this information by last Wednesday. And of course, deciding on these colors involves traveling to Cedar Falls/Waterloo which is the last thing I have time for right now. I’m tempted to just tell the builder to pick out these items for me, as really, so many other things in my life right now seem more important… How does one do it all?
Pumping is still going well for the most part. One side definitely feels more tender than the other… The lactation consultant suggested heat before pumping and massage while I’m pumping, but neither seem to relieve the knots I feel in the tender side. Anyone know any other tricks? And are your breasts supposed to feel like they are going to burst when it’s time to pump again? Will they always feel this way? What happens if you don’t pump? Wait, maybe I don’t want to know! This is kind of like that labor thing, I just wanted to be surprised, and boy was I 🙂
I’m still being pretty strict with pumping every three hours. I’m getting around 35 oz. a day which they tell me is great since Nora only eats 5 cc. at a time currently. I finally ordered a deep-freeze, and it can’t get here soon enough as our freezer is overflowing with breast milk already. It’s supposed to be delivered Tuesday. Yes, how sad I’m excited for a deep-freeze…
I still haven’t figured out the best mix of seeing Nora and giving myself a break from this place. Every single nurse and doctor here told me not to sleep here if I live close enough to drive back and forth. They said it will drive a person crazy being here non-stop if all you can do is look at your baby. And I think they were right. Eric and I are here now and plan to hang out for a few more hours, but then I assume we’ll head home to relax and get some sleep tonight. Eric has a full week ahead of him.
Here’s a picture I just took of Nora 🙂 She desperately needs a bath to remove the remaining EEG glue!