The days keep getting away from me… Today I didn’t even leave the house, and still the day seemed to fly. I’m sure I have text messages on my phone I haven’t responded to!
I think I’m settling into motherhood, although I still don’t always know exactly what to do with sweet little Nora. As I type she’s wiggling around next to me…
Eric had the past two weeks off work and was a huge help during the days. The nights, not so much. Nothing wakes that man. I fear I’ll never be able to trust him for an overnight with Nora. Even though I’ve been taking all the night feedings, and most of the day ones too, I can’t complain, Nora is a very content baby. She only cries while she’s eating. Yes, during her bottles or breastfeeding. We started Zantac a few days ago as her doctor believes it’s reflux. I’m so hoping she feels better soon. In my quest to figure out why she was crying during feedings I purchased a few items. Okay, a lot of items. I’m now the proud owner of pretty much every brand of baby bottles on the market. And different flow nipples for each as well. And OMG some bottles have a ton of parts! I think we’ve decided the Avent Natural are the best for Nora. They seem to fit her mouth the best, as many others tended to leaked out the corners. And bonus, they are easy to clean!
As for breastfeeding, I’m not giving up, but golly it seems more difficult than pumping and feeding with bottles since she’s currently crying through her feedings. Like today I only nursed her for one feeding, well, part of one feeding, five minutes on each side and then I gave up and warmed a bottle. I think if we weren’t fortifying her bottles feedings would be easier, even with pumping. I’m convinced the fortifier is causing her reflux and AWFUL gas. So aside from the Zantac, we’re also adding gas drops to each of her bottles. I need to ask the doctor at our next appointment how long we need to fortify my milk… I’m still making more than twice what Nora can eat each day, so I usually make one bottle for her from each pumping session and then freeze the remaining. I’m going to have more milk than I know what to do with! I assume there will be a day when Nora can eat as much as I produce though… currently she is only taking 1.5-2 oz every 4-6 hours. I feel like 6 hours is a long time for technically a newborn, but my doctor doesn’t really want me to wake her much, as it’s when she’s sleeping that she is growing. Apparently eating often uses a lot of calories and we want to conserve as many as possible.
The only other thing Nora is supposed to be taking is her multi-vitamin with iron. I’m bad, I haven’t given in to her in several days, but she already seems happier without it… She actually poops on the days I don’t give it to her, so of course she’s happier! The fortifier has all the same vitamins and iron, so I’m not sure why we need to be giving both… And plus, the vitamin tastes terrible and therefore it’s hard to get her to take it. And it stains, so I pretty much have to strip her unless I want all her cute clothing ruined. Hey, no laughing, I’m sick of the extra laundry already!
Tomorrow Eric goes back to work and thus starts my official life as a stay-at-home mom. I’m not sure exactly how I feel about this… I’m not at all concerned about taking care of Nora alone, as I’ve been alone with her plenty already. It’s more the realization of what my life will be, at least for the next year perhaps. Even with Eric home I’ve felt like all the days are now the same. And all the days involve are cleaning and laundry. I guess I’m just not sure how to make my days feel exciting, have a purpose. Right now my time is consumed with feeding, pumping, washing bottles and pump parts, and then doing that all over again. But I assume at some point I’ll find I have more time, and then what will I do? I understand that taking care of Nora and watching her grow will be far more fulfilling than I can imagine right now, but what if I need more?
Alright, more later, as I need to shorten Nora’s talons before she scratches more skin off her face!
Oh, two pictures I want to share first, another proof of Nora I received, and my Monte glider/recliner that finally arrived from Canada!!