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June 15, 2015 – 13 Weeks (2 Weeks Corrected)

13 weeks

I can’t be the only one that feels like their life is that movie, Groundhog Day, right?  It feels like I keep doing the same things over and over and over again, with no end in sight.  And don’t get me wrong, Nora is amazing and I love her beyond words…  But the days feel like they are all running together.  Nora is now 13 weeks, which means I’ve been pumping round the clock for 13 weeks.  Ugh.  I hate my pump, I hate the timer that goes off on my phone every three hours to remind me it’s that time again.  I hate washing bottles and pump parts each night.  And I know, I shouldn’t complain, I wanted all this, just feels like a lot right now.  Eric did get back into town yesterday, but of course he had a ton of work to do, thus he wasn’t much help with Nora.  Not that he doesn’t want to help, I know he does, he just has so much to do and so little time.  And I thought I was doing so well today, picked out meals for this week and Nora and I picked up all the ingredients.  But it’s almost 7:30pm and Eric hasn’t even left work yet.  So frustrating.  Makes me feel like making dinner is pointless when his schedule is so unpredictable.

I did decide to make a few changes today, to hopefully make my days easier.  First, I’m dropping one of my pumps, going for 7 to 6 in each 24 hour period, at 7, 3, and 11.  Not sure what this will do to my supply, but I already have more than I need, so I’ll just see what happens.  And second, I switched Nora’s fortifier.  We left the hospital on Neosure, and then for the past two weeks or so we’d been trying Enfacare, but honestly, she acts uncomfortable on both.  She strains to poop, even though her stools are loose.  Does that mean her stomach hurts?  And while her reflux is better on the Zantac, I hate that she has reflux in the first place, as I blame the fortifiers for that as well.  I did a little research online today…  Apparently there is a human milk fortifier, well, several actually, I requested some information on this one, we’ll see.  I’m not even sure it’s for sale to the public  In the meantime though I asked a preemie mom Facebook group what they use…  Several told me they just mix Gentlease with breast milk to make it 24k/cals per ounce, even though technically it isn’t a preemie fortifier.  I feel a little bad taking it upon myself to switch things up without her doctor’s okay… I’m only going to try it for a few days though, just to see if she acts any different.  I don’t want to jeopardise her health, but I also hate to see her so uncomfortable.

In other news, I’m stressing about what to wear Friday evening to Eric’s residency graduation dinner.  I purchased two dresses and already asked my Facebook friends for votes.  Not a single person voted for the peach…  Many didn’t think it was very dressy, but it’s silk, and in person I find it just as dressy as the black.  Links are below.  I just feel like black is so plain, I always wear black, feels like I should mix things up a bit…  I’m not sure if I’m wearing either though, nor do I have shoes picked out.  I might try to stop at Von Maur someday this week and see what they have…

Peach Silk Dress

Black Dress

Oh, and I’m pasty white.  No, seriously bad.  I was given Tarte Self Tanner as a gift and used it once a few weeks ago.  I liked the results but had only applied it to my legs.  Well, this morning I put it everywhere, even my face.  I assume I’ll need to apply it again before Friday to truly get a noticeable tan.  Oh gosh I hope I didn’t miss any spots!  And I couldn’t keep Kona away from me today, I’ll probably have white lick marks on my legs!  That’s all I need!

14 thoughts on “June 15, 2015 – 13 Weeks (2 Weeks Corrected)

  1. I can only imagine the redundancy of pumping as often as you have to! As for the dresses, I’m a fan of color and love the peach one!!

  2. Nora is such a cutie! Did you ever get all the pictures back from your photographer?
    So, I checked out both dresses….. I like them both, but I really like the peach one!! I am the same as you, always go for the black. Im trying to get my color in my closet

    1. I’m just going through comments now, I suck… I did post all the professional pictures on my smugmug account, although they are in their own folder under Nora. Let me know if you can’t find them!

  3. I love how cute Nora is, thank you so much for sharing her pictures! Both dresses are super cute, if it’s formal I’d go with the black dress and if it’s a bit more casual I’d go with the light one – that said I almost always tend towards black and solid colours, so I might be biased to that one. 🙂

  4. I am a huge fan of wearing color as opposed to black but the black dress gets my vote. Maybe it’s the pattern on the silk dress that prevents it from looking more dressy but I love the cut outs around the neck on the black dress! As for Ground Hogs day, I’m living it with you. Except for repeating in 24 hour cycles my life is in 3 hour cycles. Feed, change diapers, swaddle, pump, nap, then repeat. :). I have cut down on washing pump parts, I don’t wash them after every use. I put them in a ziplock bag after use and stick them in the fridge and re use for a time or two. :). I wish my supply was enough to cut a session out, I only get enough for 3-4 feedings a day for my twins. I use Gentlease at night and the BM during the day.
    I hope it gets better for you and hopefully your husbands schedule will lighten up soon!

    1. I think I’m settling into my pumping routine now.. Although I can’t say I like it, I’m getting more used to it…

  5. I think all babies strain to poop – just part of being new to the whole digestion thing!

  6. I buy most of my special event dresses from whbm so I’m sure the peach one is nice enough!

  7. I would totally go with the peach one over the black one. The black one is a bit plain and boring, while the peach one has a grown-up kick to it.

  8. The monotony has to be wearing on you. Talking/blogging about it is a great way to deal. Don’t feel bad about it!
    I vote for the peach dress! It’s so pretty. I also always wear black so it’s nice to change it up!

  9. Don’t be hard on yourself! If things dont get done it is fine as you have a baby and things always are so much harder to get done and take more time. Do what you want to do and try to make things simplier. I washed bottles in the dishwasher. Mine only had three parts so very simple to take apart and throw in. Wear the dress you want to wear!!! If easier to quit breast feeding then quit if you want. Time tables have changed from what they used to be. I used to go crazy thinking I was getting nothing done. Take time for yourself and have FUN!!!! Don’t put stress on yourself doing things that aren’t important. Making dinner can wait especially if Eric is on a schedule that is unpredictable. Keep dinner simple. Have a great day!!!! We need to get together soon!!!

  10. I like both dresses. I very much like the pattern of the pink/peach on. I do agree that it reads slightly casual in pictures, but if it’s dressier in person (or if the event isn’t super dressy), then I think it’s a great choice. The black is pretty and very classic, but it sounds like you want to mix it up a little!

  11. Both are lovely. Because of where you are and the weather I’d go peach as it looks cooler. However, before deciding check to see if you have shoes that work and some sort of shawl or whatever in case you are inside, air conditioned and need something on your shoulders to deflect the chill.
    Given your supply decreasing one pump session sounds reasonable and I think you can try a different fortifier without worry because you are smart, will pay close attention to consequences, can always revert if need be, have enough stashed to last during any period if you needed to up pumping and your supply. Figuring out WHICH session to drop however is something I have NO advice about! How long do they say a fortifier will be needed? (know before you invest and then face discarding).
    You are being a terrific mother and supportive wife. Cheers.

    1. Thank you, you’re so sweet 🙂

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