Hard to believe my little peanut is already 14 weeks old! Yesterday was Nora’s 4 month check-up and thus her 4 month shots. She was not fond of them, and was a bit fussy yesterday, but we managed with some Tylenol. She’s all smiles today!
Life still seems to be flying by. I’m guessing you could have guessed by my lack of posts. And lack of responses to comments on my blog as well. I just don’t know where the days go. Eric went to Cedar Falls today to meet with his marketing team, and it’s almost 7:30pm and I’ve yet to shower. How is that even possible??? Is this normal?? I feel like all I accomplished today was a walk with Nora in-between feedings, diaper changes, pumping, feeding myself, and washing bottles. Thankfully there is Royal Pains to pass the time while pumping! I’ve made it to season 5, so perhaps I shouldn’t really wonder where my time goes!
Having Eric home the past week has been great. He’s been attempting to study for his boards, but has been more than willing to take feedings or watch Nora while I run errands. Being all alone again today made me realize how much of a help it is to have him here. Eric did suggest a nanny again, not full-time, just some days to allow me some time to myself. As much as I’d love a nanny, I feel a little guilty even looking into hiring one. I don’t work, I only have one child, I should be able to handle this! I don’t feel guilty about hiring a cleaning lady once we’re all moved though, that is a must!
Our house is still coming along, they estimate it will be complete the first week of August. Eric starts August 1st so I assume he’ll stay in a hotel for that first week until we move in. I haven’t packed or organized a single thing yet. Eric’s contract includes moving costs, so I suppose I should look into getting some quotes for movers. Oh, my to do list goes on and on. I still need to pick out light fixtures, bathroom mirrors, and God only knows what else. I fear daily the builders are just sitting there waiting on me. I wouldn’t know if they were since I haven’t seen the house in over a month!
I know everyone told me motherhood was rough, but I never imagined such a huge commitment as pumping round the clock has put on me. I suppose breastfeeding round the clock is no different, or so I assume, as I really wouldn’t know. Nora was 8 lbs 3 oz yesterday, so we still have over a 1.5 lbs until we can stop fortifying my breast milk, and thus before I could even consider strictly nursing and not pumping. Well, or at least attempting to do such. I go back and forth on this. It’s so easy for me to pull out a bottle in public and feed her wherever, rather than finding a spot to nurse her. Although I guess I could still feed her bottles when out and about. That would be mean pumping though… Breastfeeding Nora continues to frustrate both her and I, but I’ll admit, it’s probably because it’s new to me, and her. Some days I don’t attempt at all. I decided to try just a bit ago, and guess what? She did awesome at latching. I had to do the whole sandwich thing for maybe the first minute, but then I let go and she was able to stay latched! And she nursed for perhaps 10 minutes on that side with me only having to re-latch her once. I guess I don’t have much to compare this to, but I’m calling this a huge success. I feel clueless overall with nursing though. I know how much in a bottle she will take every 3-4 hours. With nursing though, how long does 10 minutes satisfy her?? It can’t be long, as it takes her MUCH longer to finish her bottles. I would have offered her the other side, but she was falling asleep… Maybe I’ll try again when she acts hungry next…
I’m not sure if other moms feel this way, but it seems like I’ve had a newborn for 4 months now. Just this week I’ve started to notice some changes, Nora smiles when Eric and I talk to her and she seems to follow toys we hold in front of her, but otherwise, she’s still the same baby in the NICU. Maybe I’m just too anxious. Maybe I should focus on how amazingly healthy she is after all she’s been through. And no, I don’t mean to rush her life, to wish her out of this tiny newborn phase, but it would be nice to feel like she’s progressing, that we aren’t stuck in the same stage forever.