Halfway through our second week of daycare… I’m shocked at how much I can accomplish when the girls aren’t here. Even when we had sitters during the day with me home, I never got much done, as the girls knew I was home and would whine and cry for me. Honestly, the past two weeks are pretty much my first times being alone at home. I forgot what it’s like!
That said, I certainly have a mix of emotions. While it’s super nice to actually get to unpack some boxes… I feel super guilty being home while someone else is caring for them. The first couple days Nora was really excited to go. Then last Thursday and Friday I kept her home as she wasn’t feeling well. I feel like we are starting all over, only this time she understands I’m leaving her and cries. And of course Nadia screams whennever I’m not holding her, so of course she screams when I leave her at daycare. Breaks my heart. But this is good for them, right? I mean, I wanted them to have more interactions with kids their age. And yes, I expected us to get sick from germs, since we have been somewhat shielded from all that thus far. And boy are we sick. Icky runny noses, lots of congestion, bad coughs. But I guess it was either get sick now or when Nora started school.
I’m not sure how to get over the guilt of taking them to daycare. Maybe once the house is unpacked and I figure out working and a schedule for me I’ll feel better about it all, more settled. Maybe the girls won’t always cry when I drop them off. Will they? Maybe starting daycare so soon after moving was a bad idea. Too much change all at once for the girls?
My biggest issue with daycare is the fact that they don’t nap well there. And thus they are MOODY when they get home. I’m guessing any of you who have kids in daycare are very familiar with this, right? And I don’t mean they are a little moody. I mean they basically just scream and cry and throw themselves on the floor and on me. It makes what little time I do have with them horrible for them and me. This week Eric has been home and him and I have been trying to get as much done on the house as possible together, so the girls have been at daycare from maybe 8:30am until 4:30pm. When it’s just me and he’s working I’ll pick them up earlier, but will that help? We eat dinner and then they go straight to bed. Nadia hardly even wants dinner, just a bottle and falls asleep. Right when we got home tonight and I was making dinner and they were both freaking out I was thinking, what the hell am I doing wrong?? Anyone have a good suggestion for me… Will they learn to nap better at daycare over time? They each nap maybe 45 mins there, which certainly isn’t enough.
Tomorrow is MOPs back in Cedar Falls, and I really, really want to go. But since I’m still so sick I feel like I should stay home to rest and keep my germs to myself…