I feel like a broken record, repeatedly stating how hard this is… but I can’t help it. I feel like I’m drowning. It breaks my heart that it’s been five days and still Nadia is screaming and pulling on her ears. How is it possibly the antibiotic injections aren’t working yet? And I’m not sure I can stand to have them give her another. She’s been inconsolable several times during the past 24 hours. I can’t tell If she’s pulling on her ears or grabbing at her head and back of her neck… She still has the diarrhea and such a sore bottom even though I made a paste and have been layering it on pretty thick. She wants to be held but yet isn’t happy in my arms. Ugh. I just want Eric home to take over, to take her to the doctor, or heck even change a diaper that is so hard alone as she fights me. But he really won’t be finished with work once he is home, which is the hardest part of this.