You know those people who are so incredibly negative? Well, try working next to one for 40+ hours a week. Let’s call her Debbie, short for Debbie Downer. And no, I really could care less if she ends up reading this. I swear, either she goes or I go, but I can’t continue working in such close proximity to her. Just not healthy for me. I don’t even know how to explain how bothersome and disruptive to my days she has become. Okay, let me try…
- She talks to her computer, often loudly. No, it’s more like she yells at her computer if it happens to think for a second longer than she feels appropriate. When I first started I used to think she was talking to me. Now I know to ignore her outbursts. But seriously, what adult does that? Don’t they make meds for anxiety? Because she clearly is not handling hers well.
- When she is particularly annoyed with her computer, or the air, or God knows what, she announces that she must look for a new job. I’ve only worked with her a year so far and apparently something is wrong as she’s been looking for a job the entire time, but darn it, she is still here.
- She expects important people to know her, and loudly announces her displeasure when they don’t. Um, this hospital is huge. We are nobodies in finance. If the CFO did know my name, I’d be alarmed. Get over it lady. Just do your job and shut up.
- She doesn’t eat. I’m not sure why this bothers me, as honestly, it doesn’t have much to do with me, other than I realize it’s normal for humans to consume food. Hello! No wonder she has to wear her winter coat all summer with her space heater running full blast. Humans have fat for a reason.
- She’s extremely passive-aggressive. Yes, this is never a good quality in a person, now is it? Example… One day I walked to get lunch from one of our cafes with several other co-workers. We did not invite her to walk with us. I don’t like her and frankly wanted away from her, if only for a few minutes, so obviously I wasn’t going to invite her. I can’t speak for the others. Anyway, we got back to our desks with lunch and she sends me an IM that her coworkers hurt her feelings. Who says that to one of the people who did it??? I mean really. We are adults here. I’m not obligated to ask her each day if she wants to walk to get lunch. Although, if I did, she would always say no anyway since she doesn’t freaking eat!
- She is constantly on the phone with her husband or kids. Now again, I could care less how people spend their time at work. She is not on my team and thus her time doesn’t matter to me. What bothers me though is that she is constantly complaining that she doesn’t have enough time to complete her work. This I hear non-stop. Well lady, if you’d let your husband and kids have a few free minutes from your bitching, maybe your work would be complete!
- She clearly feels she is entitled to a hefty raise. She told us all that today. And not quietly either, I might add. I assume her boss heard. I assume everyone’s boss heard.
- She’s nosy. On a regular basis she sneaks up behind me, scaring the shit outta me, and asks what I’m working on. Um, work, isn’t that what people do at work?? And the other day I picked up a refill of PIO from the pharmacy, arriving back at my desk with a white bag that clearly stated pharmacy. She had the nerve to ask what goodies I purchased. Um, honey, these are far from goodies, but so nice of you to openly point out to our area my pharmacy run.
Okay, I could really go on and on, but I feel my blood pressure rising just thinking about her. I do realize that I am not always an extremely positive person, but to the outside world, especially at work, I keep my composure. I just wish she would keep her outbursts and opinions to herself, as she is seriously dragging me down. I searched for jobs online last night, simply because I couldn’t imagine going back to work this morning and being forced to deal with her.
In other news, I have a few concerns. First, my hip feels strangely numb. A few weeks ago one of my progesterone shots Eric gave me bruised quite badly. Really the only shot that has ever left a mark, which also stung for hours, which is odd as well. Anyway, a few days later my hip on that side felt odd. And it’s not necessarily where the shot was given, it’s lower on the side. It feels numb is the best way I can describe it. I asked Eric about it and he said we must have hit a nerve and that the feeling will come back in time. Has anyone else experienced this?
Other concern… I didn’t feel the best today. I wouldn’t say I was nauseous though, I just felt off. I woke up this morning and felt hot and sweaty, you know how you feel when you have a fever? But I highly doubt I actually had one. I felt a bit better after I showered and thus headed to work. Shortly after arriving I realized I was starving. And not just a little hungry, but a lot. And yes, I’m guessing I didn’t make the best choice for breakfast. One of the girls I work with made way yummy bars for her birthday, so that was breakfast along with a decaf pumpkin spice latte. A few hours later though, starving again. It was almost like I felt shaky, like my blood sugar was really low, I really needed to eat. The cafes at work had awful choices today, so lunch was a loaded baked potato. A few hour later, that shaky feeling was back. And while I have heartburn almost everyday from my acid reflux, today it felt even worse. That strange feeling in your throat like something is there… I think I would have felt better if I’d actually been able to throw up, but nope, didn’t do that. I’m really hoping I feel better tomorrow.
Only a few more days until our ultrasound and clinic visit with our RE!!!