I’ve been feeling a bit sad this week… Our original IVF plan had tentatively scheduled our egg retrieval for either today or tomorrow, so I can’t help but feel a little discouraged. I actually stayed home from work yesterday as I woke up with a TERRIBLE headache. I’m not really one to get headaches though, well, aside from when I was on the Lupron. (And oh yeah, so excited for that higher dose next time!) My headache yesterday was different though, it felt like my skull was crushing itself, and it was difficult to focus, like I was strangely cross-eyed. So odd. So I emailed my boss and spent the morning snoozing. When I woke around noon I actually felt quite a bit better. I found something semi-healthy to call lunch and by 1:45pm my headache was pretty much gone. Why is it though, that I always feel such an intensely guilty feeling whenever I stay home from work sick? I mean, I guess it’s because I could have forced myself to work, I do sit at a desk all day, it’s not like I was physically unable to work. Or perhaps it’s because some of my coworkers are there every day, no matter what. They could be puking with a 105 fever and they’d be there with their ice pack and chicken noodle soup! So yes, I felt guilty and weak for staying home, but it was nice to relax and catch up on some sleep. And if nothing else, my sore leg muscles are feeling much better after rehydrating, as they’ve been aching since Monday’s and Tuesday’s workouts.
And guess who moved all their crap back home for good last night??? Yes, Eric is finally finished with his Mason City rotation!!! He got home around 7pm last night, with bags of junk in hand that are now consuming any and all possible floor space in our bedroom. And I assume they will be there for weeks, until I go through them, as we all know how organization isn’t Eric’s strong point. Regardless though, it’s wonderful to have him home. I am sad to give back his prime parking spot at the University though… (Maybe next winter I’ll be home with a newborn!)
Eric actually had today and tomorrow, plus this weekend off, and I’m a little sad I didn’t plan ahead to use some vacation. It’s month-end though, so really not the best time to be off. One of these years I’m not going to work in accounting so I can use vacation any old week of any old month I want! Ah, in my dreams…
Speaking of working, I have a new (somewhat crazy) idea… In reference to my post about becoming a stay-at-home mom and how if my impression of such is not true, which I’m pretty sure we can all agree isn’t, then I’d just assume work outside the home. But doing what…? I’ve worked in Finance/Accounting for the past ten years since I finished my undergrad, and worked on my MBA along the way, so business is really all I know. That said though, I can’t lie, sometimes sitting in front of a computer all day browsing countless excel files gets old. There are only so many pivot tables you can make in one day or vlookup’s you can perform. And no, contrary to Eric’s understanding, a vlookup is not a sexual position. I need to feel like I truly make a difference, and closing the books every month just really isn’t doing it for me. I want to feel personally responsible for the success of, well, something. But what…
I can only assume Eric’s and my new city has various institutions with financial roles similar to my current position at the University, in fact, those working on Eric’s contract already assured me there is a job at the hospital there for me, but I feel like maybe it’s time to go a different direction. For the past ten years I’ve always picked the safe, secure route, which is fine, good actually, it’s the responsible thing, but sometimes being responsible only gets you so far. I keep hearing Eric’s words in my head, that what I get out of this move is money, and if that’s true, I want to find a way to use that for good. So I’ve decided, I’m going to open a coffee shop. Now granted, this will require a sh*t ton of research, which I’ve already started, as I’ll need a business plan if I ever hope to be approved for a business loan. And as much as I hated that class on business plans, I understand it’s necessary, in fact, it might be what either proves or disproves this is a good idea. This will really be the first time in my life I’ve ever had the opportunity to take such a risk, and for that, I feel very fortunate. While I’d prefer to acquire a business loan, it’s somewhat comforting to know that Eric’s income could carry us until I get my feet on the ground and running. Plus, making any real profit is gonna take a ton of lattes and mochas to really amount to much! I think this will be a great opportunity for me though, it’s that something for me I was struggling to grasp in this move that is otherwise focused on Eric’s career. I’m actually quite excited now… something I’ve yet to feel until just the past few days regarding this move. And what’s even better? Eric is supportive of this idea, he thinks our new city will be the perfect environment for such a startup. I’ve added a new page, Coffee Shop, to the menu so I can track progress and jot down notes and such. Don’t get too excited just yet, we have a long way to go, but it should be a fun ride!
