Another Snow Day

What is this, the 3rd snow day in a row? Like the 5th day stuck at home with my girls and no Eric. I might lose my mind soon. I know, I say that a lot, and haven’t yet, but it sure feels like I’m going to!

Nadia has a double ear infection, which thanks to her tubes is draining some nasty stuff. But good it’s draining a least. We’ve had a rough several nights of little sleep. Last night Nadia did sleep a lot better, but Nora woke at 2am saying her ear hurt, so we’re heading to the doctor as soon as the girls wake from naps. Watch, today will be the day I have to wake them…

I have a MOMS Club gathering scheduled tomorrow morning so I’m hoping all is well and our lives are back to a schedule tomorrow. And I was supposed to have the interior designer come to our home tomorrow with her samples to match stuff… but I emailed her and rescheduled for two weeks out. I feel bad, but I’m basically buying time to consider if we are staying in this house. Not that I’m going to know in two weeks…

I did sign the girls up for pre-school in Cedar Falls starting in August. Yes, you read that correct. It was more a, just in case we are there, kind of thing. I figure if we aren’t there, and I lose the $100 registration fee, well, I’ve wasted a lot more than $100 before, so money well spent. There is an open house for the preschool there this Sunday. It’s actually connected to the Catholic school there I assumed the girls would attend. Youngest they take is three year-olds, so wasn’t an option for us when we lived there previously. But the kids have to be independent in the bathroom, so I’ll need to work with Nadia more. She is actually almost there, and August is a long time from now!

I still have so much anxiety about feeding my girls, it’s actually one of the hardest things about them home with me for days on end. I feel like they don’t eat anything I offer them! So much waste. Lunch today was mini-cheeseburgers, teriyaki noodles, and apple sauce. Perhaps a strange offering for toddlers, but I’m sick of my usual mac and cheese. Plus, I’ve been eating toddler food for days on end now too! Neither really ate much, Nadia had some apple sauce and Nora had some noodles, after I picked out the TINY carrots and green onions. I have no idea how they are still gaining weight! They both still constantly ask for plain noodles, so we do a lot of those for snacks, and sometimes meals, but yuck, plain noodles. I feel bad feeding them that, even though it’s what they want. It’s hard when all the meal planning and cooking and well, everything, is on me alone. It would be nice for once if Eric had to plan a meal for them. Like, what am I going to feed them for dinner now?? I’ve been craving my corn chowder, but I doubt they will eat that!

Snow Day

It’s supposed to snow today. Predictions were for it to start early afternoon and end tomorrow with up to 10 inches. I kept the girls home from daycare today, as I figured what’s the point in getting everyone up and ready and out the door when I’d be picking them up early anyway. Well, that and I was lazy this morning. Nadia keeps waking between 530 and 6am, too early for my liking. And the dog contributes to wake me at odd hours overnight to bark at the air in our backyard. Staying home just felt easier. Well, at the time.

It’s almost noon and the radar shows the snow missing us… Maybe the radar is being sneaky.

So far today I’ve prepared three breakfasts and one lunch and threw enough food away to feed a family of four. But most of the dishes are clean! I’m considering laundry but I really don’t want to push myself 🙂

Eric left this morning for the start of his week away on-call. The idea of being stuck at home with the girls today and all weekend, depending on how much snow we actually get, is daunting. So far the girls have been pretty good, no hair pulling at least. And it’s almost nap time! I’ve used their iPads as entertainment much of today though, so should probably hide those during nap time and actually parent from when they wake until bedtime tonight. Oh yeah, dinner. I better start dreaming that up too!

In hindsight I probably should have taken them to daycare today, considering I’m on my own until next Friday.

Anyone else not looking forward to snow this weekend?

Damn Snow

If I wasn’t born and raised in Iowa and married a guy also from Iowa, I would not still be here. I hate snow. Yes, it can be pretty. But the chaos it causes, the car accidents, the deaths… I could certainly do without all those. We are supposed to get six inches of this white stuff today, and already the interstate is snow-covered. And of course today is Eric’s clinic day in Ft. Dodge… Why do I feel like he’s going to get stuck there and end up spending another night away??

Today is my mom’s birthday and I wanted to surprise her at work with a bouquet of flowers. Cue snow storm… When I dropped the girls off at daycare this morning around 8:30am I learned they were closing at noon due to the expected bad weather. If I’d known ahead of time I would have just kept them home the entire day… Sometimes the morning struggling of waking up, getting dressed, breakfast, and somehow out the door, just isn’t worth it. Especially for only three hours. Although… buying groceries was easier alone.

I returned home to shower after dropping the girls off and received a call that my afternoon window shutter install needed to be moved to the morning. Again, the freaking snow. So I bought groceries quick as I needed ingredients for dinner, Million Dollar Spaghetti, and by that time it was already 11:35am and thus back to daycare. I’ve made this dish several times and the girls really liked it. Fingers crossed they still do. You know toddlers! And another dish with sour cream, cream cheese, even cottage cheese…

So back home, girls are napping, I’m feeding my face for the first time today (how do I forget to eat??) and wondering how I will occupy Nora’s and Nadia’s busy brains once they wake. Do other people’s kids just play? Do you entertain your children? To be honest, I love them, but I don’t love sitting on the floor playing train or coloring all afternoon… I’d rather be doing laundry, making dinner, and perhaps dreaming up ways to decorate this room with furniture and other fixtures now that the shutters are here… What do you think? A bit hard to see in the pictures due to the lighting. I really like them, but Nora was already banging them open and closed as I was rocking Nadia before her nap.

I was looking at my calendar for the next few months and noticed Eric is away overnight 12 out of 28 days in February, 43%, and 17 out of 31 days in March, 55%. Um, certainly more than the 33% of the time we originally discussed when our decision to move here was made. Granted, there are special circumstances the next couple months. Eric takes his oral boards in Dallas during his vacation week in February, and Eric is going to Las Vegas with some friends in March during his vacation week. And don’t even get me started. I know he deserves a vacation… but… Where does one draw the line? When you’re already away from your family that much, shouldn’t you possibly forgo vacations? I don’t take vacations, how would I? We don’t take any as a family either. I know Eric works so hard, so many hours… But, I don’t know. Part of me feels like perhaps now is not the time for him to vacation with friends, that sacrifices, while they suck, are being made on all our parts. Eric choose this professional, long before him and I even met. Yes, I was probably a little naive as to what I was getting into when Eric and I got married. I didn’t realize the extreme time commitment that was being a surgeon. And while I do complain a lot, I’m handling two little kids here, alone, more than 50% of the time some months. It’s exhausting!

Married to Medicine

Have you ever watch the show Married to Medicine on Bravo? Yeah… that and my life are as different as night and day? Black and white? Dead and alive? You get the idea.

All last week I thought Eric had clinic all next week, meaning he’d be commuting back and forth each day and have New Year’s Eve afternoon and New Year’s day off. Wrong. Apparently the holiday really did throw schedules off. He left this morning for another week of call.

In the true fashion of my life, we’d get our first snow storm when he’s away. The forecast called for 4 inches I think, but I got up as planned, dropped the girls at school and headed back home to shower. Kona had a grooming appointment at noon, but they called around 9am to see if I still wanted to bring her, due to the weather. It was really snowing already by 9:30am when I called them back, so I rescheduled her bath and nail grind for next week. I’d showered and put on make-up though (for once) so still wanted to run a few of my errands, including getting my new glasses adjusted. When a girl does her make-up, people should see it!

Side note: I probably never really went into detail about the exact location of our new home. Let’s just say it’s in a neighborhood, a small neighborhood, but off of an unpaved/gravel road about five minutes off the interstate. Needless to say, my street, and the streets it’s off of, don’t get plowed. I’m not sure if ever. We are outside the city limits, which is nice for less expensive property taxes… but, those taxes actually pay for useful things!

By 10am when I was driving into town I realized the roads, including the interstate, were shit. Snow covered and slick with semi trucks barreling by. No way was I running my errands and picking up the girls later. How would I ever get back home?? My new Honda Odyssey is not awesome in the snow, I learned. I so miss my all-wheel drive Infiniti SUV that Eric is now driving. Granted, it eats gas, but it goes anywhere and I always felt safe.

The girls and I were back home by 11am. Nadia fell asleep in the car and I managed to transfer her to bed, but she only napped 30 minutes the entire day until her bedtime at 6:45pm. Nora napped an hour and a half, but the day still felt incredibly long since Nora wasn’t in bed until almost 8pm. I had hopes of doing laundry, dishes, picking up the living room, going through the girls clothes and putting away the ones they’d outgrown, etc., but none of that happened. Those two tiny things wear me out! Nadia wants to be held every minute. No seriously. I set her down and she screams. The girls have a billion toys, no joke, but yet they just want to hang on me. Nora is addicted to her iPad, but wants to play games she is really too young for, so she’s constantly saying, ‘need help mommy’. Which yes, is cute, but…

I wish I could be that mommy that wants to hang out on the floor with the girls all day playing games and coloring…

I’ll admit, I was definitely on my phone today more than I wish I’d been, checking Facebook, reading comments on my blog, texting friends, reading emails… But it feels like my only lifeline to the outside world.

What is wrong with me that a day home with my girls makes me feel trapped?

Thinking about the next week here without Eric is quite depressing. I’m not great with entertaining the girls when I’m alone here with them. I tend to work on house stuff, like laundry and such, which leaves me constantly pushing them away, and feeling very guilty. The snow storm and below zero temps isn’t helping my feelings of being trapped either. I really don’t want to take them out in the cold and snow tomorrow, but staying home all day makes for a lot of hours to fill.

And to top off the day… the company we hired to plow our snow called. Apparently they didn’t realize how far ‘out’ we lived. They want to charge us $75 for each time they remove snow from our drive and sidewalk. Like what else?! I’m here alone with the girls, I’d prefer it be done for me, so I said okay, but that I’d let them know if I find another company that might have clients already in this area. One more thing to add to my to do list of worries. Oh, and the van needs to be fixed. Eric broke it Christmas Eve. Don’t even ask.