Thanksgiving Prep

Time is limited… the girls are currently destroying the kitchen area with PlayDoh.

Eric has this week off, but in true medical-field fashion, schedules never seem defined. Today was the only day I had something planned, MOPs, and of course, today was the day he had a surgery scheduled. He left this morning before the girls and I were awake, and it’s a long case, so I assume he won’t be home until we’re all in bed tonight. I’m home with the girls attempting to prep for Thanksgiving. I have it pretty easy this year, just making a few snacks to take to my mom’s house Thursday. Thank goodness I don’t have to clean this disaster area for guests! I decided on traditional Chex mix, as I know the girls will eat that, a pretty simple cheese ball I’ve made in the past and liked, and maple bacon crack, which I’ve never made before but looks easy and tasty. I placed an online order for groceries for pick up tomorrow morning. They better have everything I need!

Tomorrow morning we have another daycare visit, although I don’t think they have any immediate openings, like every other place in town. We looked at another daycare last week, they could get Nadia in January 2nd, but who knows on Nora, and then yesterday we saw a Montessori school which I was very impressed with, but we couldn’t enroll there until next August when the new school year begins. We’re seeing another Montessori school next week, although Eric will be working so won’t be able to evaluate that one with me.

I’m still at a complete loss as to my thoughts of being kicked out of a daycare the day after a teacher’s child bites my child… I met with a lawyer yesterday but for the time being I’ll keep those details private. I do plan to contact DHS but with this being Thanksgiving week and having the girls with me 24/7 with not a lot of help from Eric, I’m feeling too overwhelmed to contact DHS just yet. In time.

Personally I feel like a failure as a mom… I mean, I got us kicked out of a daycare, basically for having too many concerns. Yes, I’m possibly an overprotective mom who loves her girls more than anything in the world, but when does that mean a daycare doesn’t want you? Personal opinion, the director has very little business and legal sense, which makes me weary of her capacity to act as a daycare director. That said, she believes my thoughts and opinions are slander, so I guess I’ll stop here. It’s so hard though. There is so much I want to say, but I feel so censored… This I know,

Everything I’ve ever started regarding our now former daycare was true or that of my opinion based on events which took place at the center. Every thought and statement was always and only out of concern for my children.

My blog and one particular Facebook parenting group were my two outlets regarding my children… asking questions, gathering advice, learning from other moms… I don’t see how that could be considered slander… Yes, I talked about the bites, even showed pictures, but it was all true. And without those outlets, where do I go? I guess I limit my conversations to just close friends who I trust.

Aside from visiting daycare centers we’re also entertaining the idea of hiring a nanny, but I have concerns…

  • Our accountant would need to be involved due to having a household employee, so costs and time involved. I could manage all that, withholding taxes and such, I’m qualified, but honestly, I don’t want to make the time. I’d rather pay someone else to do it.
  • Having a nanny in our home limits how comfortable I’d feel here. Some days I liked staying home and doing laundry without the girls here. With a nanny here, I still fear they would cling to me.
  • How much socialization would the girls get at home with a sitter/nanny? I really liked them being in a classroom setting with other children their age.
  • How much can I expect a nanny to teach them? Again, I liked they were learning, I liked that sports was included, and dance, and supposedly Spanish, although I’m not sure that was actually being taught.

Perhaps I need to look at hiring a nanny as temporary until we find a better center with openings. But who would want to work for us knowing we won’t need them once we find enrollment elsewhere? Ugh, even thinking of all this mess makes me sad and angry all over again…

Oh, and I just remembered I need to get working on my MOMS Club stuff… way behind on all that!

Motivation

I’m finding it harder and harder to write these days. It’s not that I don’t want to, or need to. I have the thoughts in the head. I just seem to find myself filling my time with other activities… Maybe once we get back into a routine I’ll find more time. Below is what’s going on in our lives!

  • Thanksgiving was fun! Eric and I hosted at our new home. He smoked a turkey, I made some sides and my mother brought a bunch of food as well, and my sister too. It was a small gathering, just 6 adults and 4 kids, but it was nice, and fun. But in true form, the day went way too quickly. And I was so busy I didn’t take a single picture the entire day. Ugh. As you know how much I love pictures. On to Christmas I guess! I better start shopping!
  • Speaking of our new home… I’m still in the process of unpacking and decorating. It’s supposed to be fun, right? Why does it feel like work?? Our Christmas tree has been up almost a week, and yet still stands with only lights… Maybe today?
  • I went yesterday to get some ideas for window treatments. What are your thoughts on shutters? We have white trim, so probably something similar to this picture. Would you do the entire house in these? Bedrooms too?fullsizeoutput_17b9
  • Nadia had her 15 month (12 month adjusted) checkup this past Monday. I’m totally mom of the year, she has an ear infection and I had no idea. She’s been teething and cranky lately, but I guess I just figured it was her teeth and nothing more. I did ask her pediatrician about continuing physical and speech therapy. Her thoughts were… lets hold off for now. Nadia is babbling more, and says a few words. Also, she is close to walking, as she currently walks around furniture quite a bit. Her recommendation was to see how well she walks once she does. Our PT in Cedar Falls thought she felt some tightness in one leg, but our pediatrician wasn’t able to find that. So for now, I guess we’ll see. I trust our pediatrician, as she has lots of preemie experience but I also recognize she is not specifically trained in physical or speech therapy.RX99vTMmVzPUA1jdGrQ
  • At Nadia’s checkup we also discussed the cyst on her foot again. It started on the bottom of her heel shortly after birth, but now as her foot is growing it seems to be positioned more on the back edge of her heel. Our ped and Eric both agree it was caused by so many heel sticks in the NICU for blood tests. My understanding is its dead skin cells stuck under the skin. It seems to be getting larger so needs to be removed, otherwise the fear is it will bother her when walking with shoes. Problem is… with children, they like to put them out, as it will involve cutting and stitches. Ugh. Eric wants to do it at home. I said no way!
  • Girls are healthier this week and back to ‘school’ as we call it. Nora seems pretty excited to go each day, although is still a little weary of me leaving. Nadia on the other hand, screams as soon as we walk into her room. Yesterday her teacher did send me a few cute pictures of her playing. So she must not cry the entire day! Neither of the girls are napping well there, in fact, Nora hasn’t napped at all this week. So bedtime is fun. And she isn’t doing as well sleeping through the night either lately like she used to. I hope we all adjust soon.
  • Eric has been gone since last Friday, and even with daycare help, parenting alone is hard. Really hard. A part of me hates all this responsibility. I have so much anxiety toward the girls eating, especially Nora. We are still relying on some bottles of Pediasure. Nadia is still taking a few bottles too of toddler formula, but she loves eating much more than Nora ever did!
  • I’m struggling with figuring out my purpose… This probably needs a post all its own… My original intention with daycare was to get the girls some socialization with other kids a few days a week. Everyone tells me though, that the girls will adjust much better if they have a consistent routine, meaning they should go everyday. Do you all agree? And if so, what the hell do I do all day? I can only decorate this house and consider working out so many hours a day. A job is the obvious answer. But I’m scared that would take me away from the girls too much, as I still normally get them from daycare late afternoon. And with Eric off every third week, I don’t want to be working during that time, as then I would never see him. I need a really flexible job. But no clue what that would be!

I’m sure I’m forgetting a million things I was going to mention, but I’ll leave you with a somewhat amusing story…

Yesterday morning I spent several hours remaking our bed. I had purchased a new memory foam mattress topper, a gel mattress pad, and new pillows. So I washed all the new stuff and put on a clean set of sheets as well. I was worn out, so I threw all the dirty stuff into a basket in our bedroom, vowing to do laundry soon. Yesterday afternoon the cleaners came. And put all the dirty stuff back on the bed and piled all the clean stuff in the laundry room. Only in my life, right??

Weekly Pregnancy Update – 14 Weeks

How far along: 14w0d

Baby’s size: 3.98 inches, 2.47 oz., about the size of a pear.

Total weight gain: Up 2.8 lbs. from egg retrieval as I gained 2 lbs. in the last week.  I’m going to blame Thanksgiving 🙂

Maternity clothes: Same as last week, still in a mixture of regular and maternity pants, but most of my shirts and sweaters still fit me fine.

Stretch marks: Um, so get this…  I think I have some on my hips.  I have to assume they are more from gaining the weight from the fertility meds, as I haven’t really gained much since actually getting pregnant.  I kind of freaked when I noticed them.

Sleep: Had a few good nights of sleep lately, but it’s certainly still hit or miss.  I’m a stomach sleeper and I’m definitely feeling more uncomfortable when I do try to sleep on my stomach lately.

Symptoms/Feeling: I was too scared this weekend to skip the Unisom and B6, so not sure if I’m technically still experiencing nausea or not, as I feel pretty good for the most part on the meds.

Best moment of this week: When the nurse called last Wednesday morning to let me know our baby GIRL is healthy!  The MaterniT21 results showed no abnormalities.  So relieved.  And ecstatic it’s a girl.  Let the buying begin!

Miss anything: Breathing.  I feel like I’m so stuffy the past few weeks, and all I do is blow my nose!

Movement: Still too early, but looking forward to it!

Food cravings: Saturday for lunch I finally found my Hardee’s Hot Ham & Cheese.  So good!  Otherwise, no real cravings lately.  Still eating lots of oranges though.

Anything making you queasy or sick: As long as I take the Unisom and B6 I’m pretty good.  I do still gag sometimes when I take my vitamins…  Something about those.

Have you started to show yet: There is definitely something there, but I fear I just look fat, not pregnant.  Maybe it will be more pronounced in a few more weeks.

Gender: Apparently my instincts were right, it’s a girl!

Labor signs: Good God no!

Belly button in or out: In.

Wedding rings on or off: On.

Happy or moody most of the time: Yesterday I was moody.  Eric and I put up the tree, and there is just something about men…  Why do I feel like he kind of half-asses everything?  Like he will help me with the tree, but I have to go back and make it all pretty.  Maybe it’s a guy thing!

Looking forward to: Honestly, getting a little further on this house building project.  I’m anxious to finalize plans and actually start building so we can get a timeline in order.  The not knowing when we are moving is driving me crazy.  I’m still confused about what to do for a nursery in our current home.  Hopefully in a few more weeks I’ll have a better feel for how next year will go.  I just received a draft of the lower level this morning, but I’ll post separately with some of my thoughts.

Purchases for baby:  Oh gosh…  Way too much to mention with all the awesome Black Friday deals.  Although all purchases were made online, as I’m not that freaking crazy!  Basically anything marked as reserved from my registry was me…  Next big purchases will be the car seat and stroller I think.

Eric’s reactions:  Eric had a huge smile on his face when he realized our baby is a girl.  He and I both had last Wednesday off work.  He left early in the morning to run errands before the nurse called me at 7:36am to share the news.  I quickly ordered pink flowers to be delivered to my mother and then headed out to pick up a couple of cute girl baby items.  During my shopping rush Eric text to see if I wanted to meet at Village Inn for breakfast.  (What a place to share the news…)  Eric was already seated when I arrived, we quickly ordered and then I handed him the shopping bag of items.  He seemed a little confused at first, but then pulled out the pink pacifiers and with a huge smile on his face asked, ‘it’s a girl?’  That maybe wasn’t exactly how I always pictured telling him, but it’s certainly memorable!

It’s a Girl

The nurse called this morning…

Test was negative meaning they are 99% certain our baby’s chromosome are normal.

And it’s a girl!

I’m thrilled. I’ll post more later, as we’re at Eric’s parents for Thanksgiving the next couple of days, but didn’t want to keep you all in the dark any longer!

12w4d – And another main floor draft revision

I think we have the main level design finished!  Well, for the most part.  Might still move a few doors and such, and details like windows aren’t complete, but the floor plan itself is pretty solid for both the main and upper level.  We moved around the pantry, mud room, and laundry room, taking a bit of space from the garage.  I like it a lot better now, much more assessable.  If you notice anything you think should still be moved around, do tell!  We debated whether to finish the basement when the house is built or wait, and I think we’re going to do it all at once.  Everyone tells me if we wait, we may never finish it, and that it can create quite a mess of dust in the house by waiting as well.  So I guess onto designing the lower level now!

Main LevelIn other exciting news, the 4moms playard arrived yesterday!  Initial thoughts are this:

  • It’s heavy, really heavy, like 40 lbs.  I think it will be great for travel, but Eric will definitely be carrying this item!
  • Being it’s heavy, it feels very solid, great construction, and extremely sturdy.
  • There is a very good reason it’s got ‘breeze’ in the name, as it really is a breeze to set up and tear down.  I’ve struggled with several Graco pack an plays in my day, but this was super easy, only one hand required!
  • I love the bassinet attachment for smaller babies, I can see this as very useful as a changing table and sleeping area for baby in the first few weeks, possibly months as I believe it recommends usage with babies up to 25 lbs.
  • Granted, I haven’t actually used this with a baby yet, but so far, I highly recommend!

And since I was so impressed with the playard, I ordered another 4moms item this morning, as BuyBuy Baby was nice enough to send me yet another 20% off coupon.  Again, I looked through my registry for something higher priced, since I had a coupon, and settled on the 4moms mamaroo infant seat.  They make a rockaroo also, but the mamaroo has a few more features for not a ton more money.  You know me, the thrifty shopper.  HA!  As soon as I get it, I’ll let you know my thoughts, but feel free to click the link to read more about it!

I’m still not sleeping the best at night, but I may have realized why.  But tell me this, I’m only 12 weeks, is there really that much ‘baby stuff’ there yet?  I’m a stomach sleeper, and already I just feel like something is there…  Hard to explain.  Like someone put a tennis ball under my stomach in bed.  So odd!  I did purchase a body pillow, but just a cheap one at Target, and I’ve been trying to train myself to sleep on my left side with that.  We shall see.

Tomorrow is my side of the family’s Thanksgiving celebration, which will include Eric and me, my older sister, her husband, and their two children, and my mom and step-father.  We are having a late lunch tomorrow at my mom’s home about 20 minutes from my own home, a traditional Thanksgiving spread of foods.  My mom is making pretty much everything, but I always try to bring a side or two.  So far I’m making one of my favorites, Gruner Salad.  It’s cabbage with an oriental-type dressing and crunchy toppings.  Very good.  I alter the recipe a little though, as I double the topping, half the dressing, and use two bags of shredded cabbage.  It’s fairly easy to make and always tends to go fast at holiday gatherings.  Aside from that, I’m going to make a cheese dip too.  I have a dip mix at home I purchased at a craft fair awhile back.  I think it’s just mixed with cream cheese and sour cream and then baked and enjoyed with corn chips.

Speaking of Thanksgiving, there is actually a story about our plans this year…  But I’ll save that for another post…

I was really hoping I’d hear from my doctor with the results of my MaterniT21 test today, as it was a week yesterday.  Maybe yet this afternoon!